When I first sensed the marvel of Your presence in my heart,

I was drawn like a child to a carnival ride.

I perceived Your power and imagined

You’d take me further and faster –

exactly where I wanted to go,

I said yes.

Years of wholehearted yeses later,

I’ve learned that the richness of Your Spirit is the

journey, goal and destination –

in and of Itself.

You haven’t taken me any further,

only deeper-

into love.

I haven’t gained anything,

only lost –

my illusions.

Yet You continue to enchant me and

somehow draw me in, voluntarily –

through the pain of letting go,

into the richness of prayerful silence

and contemplation of Your unfathomable treasure trove

of mysteries.